Originally posted by Betty Jo Harter
I received a call from my doctor for lupus, MS, Addison, etc. etc., to make a repeat visit to be hospitalized last Friday. I asked her to please wait, let me come in Monday after the weekend. I had just been discharge again Thursday the day before. She informed me they could not wait, the lab test were too high infections is out of control again.
Oh, how I would like to encourage the Lord’s children by saying how full of faith I’ve been and how I’ve poured my heart before the Lord and the peace just came enveloping me. But it’s not so with me the past two weeks. I’m so used to being in control of my situation physically as far as knowing through experience what to do. I’m so used to being able to pick myself up though claim of His promises that I can readily recall. But these past two weeks I have not been able to even recall most of them.
I have felt like I’m in a deep dark hole. Thank God I have been comforted by knowing without a doubt if I’m there, and I’m His, He is there! One new gleaning from this latest experience of sinking bodily, emotionally, spiritual alertness is that it has to be during these times that our Lord secures us like a baby. Helpless as we are. He doesn’t require us to search out but envelop us as new born helpless baby and sustains us with what we need. It has to have been that way with me right now. I’m to helpless, hopeless to help myself and yet each morning I see the sunshine reappear, the children coming in to just be near and I am lavished with emails, cards and a sense of longing to communicate again with my Lord and thanking Him for the magnitude of his mercy to me. I wish this update could have been more encouraging, inspirational, but it’s true.
Mom Betty
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